hello
i’m not big on introductions
i’m not good at marketing myself or highlighting my qualities. the best i can do is tell you what i’ve done and what i want to do. i can tell you the things i’ve seen and done. maybe not all of them. can tell you about my day. but, outside it’s different. people ask for names and age. “where are you from? do you like it better here or there?”
are you a hugger or do we shake hands
my ability to start something from anything felt like a superpower that has now been stripped away from me. i don’t think i was always like this. but forever feels like a decade ago. and the person that rushed to include and feel included is now standing 6 feet away from me waving behind a sheer curtain. wondering. watching. waiting.
i’ve grown to hate. i’ve grown to love. i’ve grown to suffer. these feelings that demand to be heard have drowned me. and now this is where i sit. at a table lacking persons in chairs. with all this food around and nobody to share it with. all because of what? i still do not know.
anyway, if you read this far. i don’t know what i was trying to get at here but i needed to make a post. this is now said post. thank you